Stress Level Critical...

Soooo it's been a stressful month! I've been working like crazy on my cosplay outfits for Youmacon 2012 and they are coming along nicely... They had better be - only 9 days left and I've got a DATE tonight! It's my first date with a LADY totally nervous! And she just walked up.... I feel like I'm talking about her while she's here staring at me... >.>;; Eep!

So besides that, I've also been kinda flirting with this guy... And yeah... I don't really know how THAT'S even going... Back story time - I'm polyamorous, which means I am with someone but I want to have relationships with other people. Not fuck buddies, not friends with benefits, but actual relationships.

So I found this guy on a dating site and he seemed really nice. We've been flirting for about a month and he got me a box of chocolates for Sweetest Day. I don't do Hallmark holidays, but I appreciate the thought. I asked him what it meant and basically explained to him that 'just flirting' wasn't what I wanted. He went on and on about how he really liked me and didn't want to loose me and all that crap...  Well, that's great and all and those are really good reasons to date someone, right? Well, he didn't want to... Or something... He wouldn't' give me a straight answer...

So I'm still in this 'limbo' thing as far as that goes... Blah. Stressful. Stupid. But whatever. I ended up saying "I can't be around you unless you make a decision because I'm not going to get hurt by this stupid shit." And now he's up north somewhere with a bunch of hippies trying to find himself. Whatevs. If it helps it helps, if it doesn't, it doesn't. I've got sewing to do. Layta!